Eventually, every being must walk in their own light. As parents, we serve as a portal, a gateway to populate the earth. Women specifically, I think of us as a portal. We receive. We transform and give life. We nurture and care for the human while they’re still young. We don’t own; we own nothing. But our responsibility is great. As we experience life on earth together and make certain sacrifices for our offspring, we grow a bond. We want only what’s best for them. Having the desire to see them do great in this life.
With that said, I’ve realized I am more than a mother. I thought this was it for me, but I am called to more. I dream of being great at producing cinematic videography. I also often imagine myself as a gateway to others’ self-realization/awakening in this life.
As a mother, I think of myself as doing my best. Being a good steward over what I asked for, while also not running myself dry. Intentionally prioritizing me, spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally.
Putting myself in positions that will benefit me, but also benefit my children. Sacrificing willingly. Allowing them to have freedom of choice. Motherhood is just a layer of me. My children came through me, but they will eventually have their own decisions to make and lives to live.
Being a mother has altered how I approach life. It has also made me more in tune with myself.
Some say Your Children Come First.
I don’t think I agree with the statement, your children come first. To believe this can lead to parents sacrificing themselves, spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally.
All while putting their children needs above their own. (I can probably consider that to be a form of worship if I ponder that some more). When a parent sacrifices so much of themselves, they may also start living from a place of expecting something in return because they actually neglected themself. And if what they expect does not occur, there’s conflict. I also think living in such a way can be a bad example for the children, because it teaches that their needs are more important than those of their parents.
I agree there needs to be a balance. My needs are just as important as my children’s because we are all a part of the collective. If I am not caring for myself as I should, then I am not only neglecting myself, but I am also neglecting the collective.
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