Growing up I never knew there was a term for my need for personal space and my desperate urge to be in solitude. I’ve always considered myself strange to my peers, but I wasn’t sure in what way. Back in my high school days, I was never a girl to have many friends, and the very few I had which was like one, she and I were very close which I was very much contented with.
Participating in social activities was never my thing. While in school, I participated in a few activities such as maypole dancing, tennis tournaments, pageant shows, shot put tournaments, and long jump tournaments. I never once enjoyed the crowd these events attracted. I hated it for myself and I felt awkward.
I started considering myself weird because I never found joy in having many friends nor was I interested in what my other peers were interested in. I always preferred to be alone avoiding much attention as possible and I felt very comfortable in doing so. There was never a need to follow others or follow what the crowd was doing. I was very self-aware, and I felt like I did not need companionship. but I never knew why. I can recall others referring to me as, “pompous” and “vain”. I honestly could not see why and I had no intention of appearing that way.
What is an introvert?
According to dictionary.com An Introvert is someone who prefers a calm environment, limits social engagements, or embraces a greater than average preference for solitude.
Accepting who I am.
When I graduated from high school I experienced the greatest amount of solitude. This transition was the most empowering time for me. This is the stage where I started understanding myself and nurturing my differences. I also got my very first job around this time and the feeling grew even stronger. The more people I came in contact with, the more I wanted to be in my own space. No one seemed to be in alignment with who I am if that makes sense to you. Being around others, especially people who do not understand me gets very loud, distracting, and chaotic.
Being an Introvert.
Coming to know and understanding myself to a great extent is one of the best things I’ve ever done for my Being. I love myself, I appreciate who I am, and I value personal space. For me, there is peace in being alone. The kind of peace I would never get if I were surrounded by others, or people who do not understand me, regardless of if the environment was quiet.
Alone time is absolutely necessary. Yes, it is peaceful, but being alert, energized, and mentally stimulated are all benefits of why alone time is absolutely necessary.
Of course, every day is a learning process. I am an ever-evolving Being and there is beauty in knowing yourself and accepting who you are. However, balance is also absolutely necessary. Despite my comfort to be alone most time, there are those rare occasions when I get the urge to go out. I try to give in once I get the feeling because I understand socializing is also very necessary; to one’s development in life.
I enjoy socializing, to be honest, but it gets draining fast. That is where having a balance comes in.
Post intentions: My intention behind this post is that you become self-aware and own your individuality.
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