But Darnicker what are you talking about, what is a waiting season? I’ll tell you this. Ever since I’ve accepted what my purpose is, and I’ve committed myself to it, I’ve been in the waiting season. Waiting is not, easy. It’s hard. It’s very hard. And it makes you question your decisions, and it makes you question God. It is a period or a season where you have to, submit. Surrender, and trust God. But I’m aware, I don’t have to submit, and I can go and try to do it my way. However, having free will, I choose to submit because I believe being in a state of total submission to God, is where God wants me to be. I don’t know if I’ll ever come out of this season that I identify as the waiting season. I’m just having faith that I will.
When I was recently in complete silence, by myself with my thoughts, I realized how much we strive to create a sense of stability by owning or having material wealth as a security. We try so hard to equip ourselves with these THINGS so that we don’t have to worry about the state of our future. When we don’t have any, it causes us to feel worthless and less fortunate. But this isn’t a good thing because it makes us depend on ourselves and our capabilities. So what is God’s purpose in our life, if we always try to meet our own needs by creating a life where we don’t have to, suffer?
To suffer means to undergo pain, distress, and hardship. I wish to not experience this, but as long as I’m in this world there will be some form of suffering. In the waiting, there is some sort of distress, and in the distress is where we need to have faith that all things are working for good for those who love God and are called according to his purpose.
I could be wrong, but after reading the scriptures, my interpretation is that suffering is a part of the calling. I’ve recently re-read the book of John, and in chapter 17 verse 15 Jesus prayed to his Father on behalf of his disciples, saying, “I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.” Having made known to them that they would face persecution for His name’s sake. These were His friends, and He loved them, He could have just taken them with Him.
Faith in the waiting season.
We often tend to run from uncomfortable situations, not wanting to wait, wanting everything to happen for us on our own time, and in our way.
“My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work…” James 1. It is a good thing to study scriptures while in the waiting season because it gives us the strength that we need. It gives us the confidence to trust in God and rely on His provision.
I don’t know if there are many people who knows what it feels like to pray asking God for an outcome but have to wait for the prayer to be answered. And not just wait, but wait while being obedient. For me, it has been about 4 years.
Being someone with very little to my name, and free from debt, I’ve learned the importance of giving thanks to God. I’m always grateful because the little things truly matter. Being In a season of uncertainty, I’ve learned how to surrender to God and trust that His Words are true and alive. It’s a season where you learn to be contented. I feel like I’m very contented and my experience over these years has taught me how to do well with what I have, no matter how little. It’s a season of waiting on the Lord and trusting in Him. I think the season of waiting is a good place to be while we continue to trust in the Lord because it builds faith. Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I am grateful for who I am, to be honest, I’m very comfortable in myself. I sometimes wonder If I’ll change with more, or when more comes. But I don’t know. I don’t know who I’ll be. I don’t desire to serve two masters, as Matthew stated in the scriptures. But instead, one, who is The Most High. In Ecclesiastes or Proverbs, the writer said something about give me neither poverty nor riches. That is how I feel.
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