See, something I like to sit and do is analyze humans… And some are just too fucking weird… and operate entitled. (I truly enjoy my own company, I WILL tell you I’m busy, just to be left alone so that I can think). I recently came to the conclusion that I am indeed allergic to some people. My body would do this, not-so-strange-anymore reaction, and in my head, I’ll usually be like Danicker, calm down, calm down, breathe. All while my heart is racing and I’m now sweating out of nowhere. My brain now starts doing the freaking overthinking stuff it does, and I’m literally trying to calm myself down… See, I had my safe people, who I’ll be around, and I’ll be completely fine. But it’s an unfortunate thing that those people no longer feel safe. It’s a matter of me feeling I need to repel to avoid feeling that way. I don’t blame anyone for my feelings. This is just my response to certain people I’m around and my environment.
To be alive is to know we are all gifted with 24 hours a day. All glory to God. I’m no different from anyone else. How a fully capable, well-functioning adult chooses to use their 24 hours daily is based on their choices. See, as I’m having my human experience, I am against me being managed. What I do? I trade. I don’t believe God created me to be managed. My schedule I do, my time I manage. I manage myself. It gets scary for me when anyone else is trying to do my job, a job I’m very much capable of doing myself. It’s funny, but it’s also not, because it’s weird and gives the impression that I’m monitored and you’re, somehow, entitled to my free time. Like you’re expecting me to behave a certain way. To be honest, that freaks me out… for real.
Doing nothing is doing something.
See what I’m saying here is this… every one of us needs to know our place in this world. (Titles don’t cause me to treat someone differently from another. I care about strangers the same way I care about family members. There’s no special treatment for anyone. Treatment is the same, we all one). Some people choose to do certain jobs that go well with their personality and their lifestyle. There’s no luck; they knew the part that’s good for them, and they stick with it. Any extra time they have in the day because of the part they chose was probably one of their goals.
No, they’re not lazy or “doing nothing”. They did what they needed to do for the day, and with their free time, they chose to do nothing because doing nothing is completely good when you’ve done everything that you’ve needed to do. In addition, when you’re achieving certain goals in life, doing nothing is the best thing to do to keep in the right headspace. And being alone in solitude is actually better than doing anything to cause overstimulation and frustration.
