May 12th, 2023. 7:20 pm.
I am going to leave this here while I am currently in a state of vulnerability, and learning to surrender and trust the process.
The direction of this post is GRATITUDE and still wanting more, while I am genuinely grateful to God for all I have.
I hear others preach gratitude, and being grateful for the little things, which comes as a reminder to me, because I myself do.
But although I am grateful, I still find myself wanting more.
I have all I ever prayed for, but there are just a few things missing to make me feel complete.
There is this mental confusion as to what I am supposed to focus on to get there.
It is fairly easy to say, “Be grateful” compared to actually living in a state of complete gratitude, while I am in that waiting phase.
Living in gratitude seems to be challenging for me at times simply because there is this daily thought of, “What should I do to get to where am trying to go? Lord, I need you to guide me…”
This thought has been consuming my mind lately, like to the point where it’s hard to focus at times.
With a lingering thought like this, it makes it challenging to live in the moment and express gratitude for the present, without worrying about what I should be doing…
